Bam Sucka!!

Do you ever have those total holy-crap-i-am-sooo-a-ninja moments?? i just did. lemme explain:
I was putting away dishes when the whole rack fell down (a rack of about 10 GLASS dishes) i dont know how but my spidy senses kicked in and like that *that* i caught all ten of them in my arms not breaking a single one. i stubbed my toe and cut my finger in the mix but didnt break the dishes.......i rock.:D

This is an experiment

ok so i came up with this idea to release my subconcious...or whatever.

close your eyes and type without thinking:

Bam! that was the relization hitting me. i fell to the ground. im laughing. why am i laughing? woah im crazy. im straining to see my life right now. It's.....blurred..no wiat...it's getting clearer...what the heck?? why am i just sitting there. doing nothing...the path is dissapearing...im on a figurative treadmill...it keeps moving and i cant keep up. HOLD ON!! wait a sec. im outta breathe....there we go thats better...dang. i need to keep moving. i cant just sit here while all oppurtunities come and go passing me by. I NEED to keep up. Im smiling. I got this. My smile grows wider. I breathe. I think. I smile..........i am......ready.

You know when i said everything felt like it was lifted from my shoulders??
It's true.
I am happy.
I am content.
for the first time in a long time.
Im hopeful.
and ......life is good:D