Head first

I keep having this re-occuring dream. Im standing next to the ocean, holding a scarf. Theres foot prints in the sand leading to the ocean. I have a feeling like i need to follow them. I hear some one screaming and thier head bobbing up and down in the sea gasping for air, i dont know who it is. I cant see their face. But suddenly my hands are dropping the scarf and reaching out towards the ocean as i run straight in. Then the water turns green and all around me theirs people drownding calling out for help. I try to save them all but i cant. So i keep swimming towards the first person a deep force compelling me to swim faster and faster all though my legs and arms feel like lead and are slowly weighing my down. I keep swimming but dont seem to be getting closer. I feel helpless. I cant help that person. But then i realize in horror. that im really the one drownding.

I wish i knew what in the heck my subconsious is trying to tell me.